I have been working out. Yes, I know it is hard to believe but I finally got my butt in gear and have started running, doing crunches and using the barbells to tone up my arms. Today I am suffering from that delicious pain that comes from just exerting oneself enough to burn calories and build muscle, but not enough to be gimping around, unable to move properly.
My stomach muscles ache nicely, with that tightness that makes you feel like you may have actually tightened some muscles already! My legs are sore only when I bend down and try to stand back up. But it reminds me that I have actually run recently and that makes me happy.
I think I am going to run tonight when I get home. It is drizzling a bit outside, but I am sure it will feel great as I jog my way around the park.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
The first run of the rest of my life
I am completely exhausted today. This weekend was very busy and I am feeling the effects of only six hours of sleep last night. This morning I ran my first morning run; the first of the rest of my life. I was surprised to find that I was able to run the majority of the mile without having to stop and walk.
Bronwen woke me up at 5:21am for her morning feeding. I fed her and we cuddled for ten minutes and then she went back to bed and I went out to run. It was about 5:45am when I set off down Willowbrook towards Lindley Park. The sky was still dark and the air was bracing. It felt wonderful. I was energized.
The park was very dark and I had a hard time seeing the sidewalk in front of me, so I ran in the street. When I got back home I stood in the front yard and stretched and felt so alive. I remembered this feeling. It takes me back to high school and those sports camp mornings in the fall. The classic autumn in Connecticut, the roadways lined with birch and elm, the morning mist listing in the meadows. The air tasted the same this morning as it used to taste after our three mile run for soccer practice.
Bronwen woke me up at 5:21am for her morning feeding. I fed her and we cuddled for ten minutes and then she went back to bed and I went out to run. It was about 5:45am when I set off down Willowbrook towards Lindley Park. The sky was still dark and the air was bracing. It felt wonderful. I was energized.
The park was very dark and I had a hard time seeing the sidewalk in front of me, so I ran in the street. When I got back home I stood in the front yard and stretched and felt so alive. I remembered this feeling. It takes me back to high school and those sports camp mornings in the fall. The classic autumn in Connecticut, the roadways lined with birch and elm, the morning mist listing in the meadows. The air tasted the same this morning as it used to taste after our three mile run for soccer practice.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Not so good
So, I am not getting very far with this diet. I am have begun exercising, so that should help, but nothing is happening. I need instant satisfaction.
It doesn't help that everyday I set new rules, no beer, no fried food..., and everyday I break my own rules, off to Fat Dogs for beer and waffle fries! It couldn't be more frustrating. I am just really bad at denying myself the things that I want.
Despite all this complaining, I am actually feeling pretty positive today. It is friday, I will be exercising a lot this weekend, and hopefully I will be able to stay off the beer. It is going to 82 degrees and sunny so the beer thing might be a problem, but all I can do is keep making up rules!
It doesn't help that everyday I set new rules, no beer, no fried food..., and everyday I break my own rules, off to Fat Dogs for beer and waffle fries! It couldn't be more frustrating. I am just really bad at denying myself the things that I want.
Despite all this complaining, I am actually feeling pretty positive today. It is friday, I will be exercising a lot this weekend, and hopefully I will be able to stay off the beer. It is going to 82 degrees and sunny so the beer thing might be a problem, but all I can do is keep making up rules!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Temptation
Sitting in class, trying to stay awake and engaged is difficult enough without being extremely hungry. I have started only eating maybe a banana and a cup of coffee every morning with maybe a bowl of cereal, or low fat, low sugar yogurt. But this morning I am hungry! And it is hard to concentrate on what I am doing. The problem is: what do I do with this feeling? Do I wait patiently for lunch; it is, after all, only 2 hours away? Of course not! Ellie waits for no food! I stuff my face with snack foods, pretzels, bulk snack mixes and coffee.
Back to the number problem. These calories are just adding up too quickly. (90+40+110+250=490!) Okay, and now lunch will be here soon. I will just have to be careful for dinner! No brownie desserts for me!
I am already getting bored with this food counting. Oh well. I'd better get used to it.
Back to the number problem. These calories are just adding up too quickly. (90+40+110+250=490!) Okay, and now lunch will be here soon. I will just have to be careful for dinner! No brownie desserts for me!
I am already getting bored with this food counting. Oh well. I'd better get used to it.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
It begins...
Ah, the American woman on a diet. What hasn't been written about this cliche. I have to admit, I have always turned up my nose at the dieter thinking, if you are not happy with yourself, nothing will, not even losing weight, make you happier. But now it is a health issue. (Whatever happened to the invincibility of my 20s? Could it be the birth of our child that has made me worry about the future?) It is definitely the birth of my child that has made me fat! Oh and my love of beer and brownies!
I have a goal of 30 pounds in 20 weeks, or 1.5 pounds a week. I will record my journey here and hopefully it will make it a lot more fun for me! (I just denied myself chocolate cupcakes for carrots! Argh! This isn't fun at all!)
I have a goal of 30 pounds in 20 weeks, or 1.5 pounds a week. I will record my journey here and hopefully it will make it a lot more fun for me! (I just denied myself chocolate cupcakes for carrots! Argh! This isn't fun at all!)
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